Sorry but I have been suffering from chronic detachment from the World Wide Web for the last couple weeks.
Everything that has gone wrong latley...has. Typical complaint coming from a 22 year old female right? Right.
Doesnt matter. When your the person that the world is sufficating one day at a time, you will understand. Until then I guess you can judge me.
I am tired of fighting the on going struggle with the fat kid within. Seriously where was the fork in the road that decided whether or not your metabolism could keep up with your cravings? I totally screwed up on that one...and I thought I was good at directions. It seems that no matter how many times a day I manage to make myself guilty with thoughts of ex's, bathing suits, supermodels and toned stomachs, I still end up complitley blocking that out for one more chip. Damn those delish salt and vinger chips.
However the being active thing is happening. The 3-4 times a week workout is still in progress. However I still do not feel I am pushing myself to get that " WOW THAT WAS A GREAT WORKOUT" feeling. Will be working harder.
The rest of my life continues to be a bottomless dark hole of nothing. I continue to have no true love life, employment or happiness. I good friend of mine recently jumped my ass about my negativty toward my life. All I told her was, " Thanks for caring, however until you are the one unemployed living with her mother, 1200 miles away from your best friends and the most recent missed call in your phone is from a bill collector...you have no idea how I feel." I love having great friends that continuely tell me how strong I am and how a job will be coming my way soon. However were is the other set of friends that will just sit there and bitch with me. Letting me say my life is completly worthless and maybe even agreeing with me from time to time. Call me friend lets get coffee.
To putting down that salt and vinger chip and getting coffee with a fellow negative nelly.
Friday, September 18, 2009
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